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I am not a psycho!

This is the last post of my story. Thank you to anyone who has read along to this point. I hope it helps you or somebody you know.

In my last post, I told you how I was having hallucinations even when I wasn’t on drugs. I finally had a psychotic break and started attacking other students one day in class while I was hallucinating.

My school called the police and an ambulance. I was taken to the hospital and treated for a psychotic break and referred to the psych ward. I was to undergo mental health and addiction treatment, even though I protested that acid and mushrooms were not addictive drugs.

My parents were heartbroken. They knew I had changed but didn’t realize it was because I was doing drugs. I had done so much that, according to the doctors, I was having frequent flashbacks of my LSD use, causing the hallucinations.

I completed a 30-day in-patient rehabilitation program, where I learned that in a way, I was addicted to hallucinogens. I learned from therapy that I wasn’t chasing a high so much as running from reality. I learned to embrace reality instead without drugs. Just being away from LSD and bad influences for a month did wonder for me.

I took antipsychotics for a while to help stop the hallucinations; then switched to an antidepressant to help me with the negative feelings that had me exploring drugs to escape reality in the first place. I am still in therapy and consider it maintenance for my mental health. I think everybody should be in therapy, whether they have an addiction or mental health problems or not. We go to the doctor even when we aren’t sick for a checkup, why not see a therapist to check on our mental health?

The psychotic break happened in my senior year of high school, and I was too mortified to go back. I was able to get my GED and start college the following fall.

Now, just a few years later, I am almost done with my degree program. I am still on antidepressants, and they help me enormously. I have been sober since treatment, and am determined to dedicate my life to helping others struggling with mental illness and addiction.

I’ll leave you with this final bit of advice: don’t do drugs, no matter how safe you think they may be. If you do drugs and think you may have a problem, get help immediately before things get worse. If you have a loved one you think is suffering from mental health or substance abuse issues, talk to them about it.

No matter what happens, you can turn your life around. My negative experience with drugs and mental health helped set me on the path I am on today and gave me a mission in life. You can do it too.

Thanks for reading.

Your sober and happy Kim!

Kim